There are others following...

From the day before, I'm suffering from my sins. I can understand this, for all sins must be punished by God personally. Because of what I did last night, it continued when I woke up, first I woke up at 12pm which is really late. Then from their I was not productive at all. I just watched TV and stayed in a lazy posture. By 2pm, I knew this is following my Lord, so I called one of my accountability partners and confessed to him. He helped me through not by holding my hand or just listening to a sob story. He directed me back to whom I am following, Jesus Christ.

This was so humbling to hear for all sin will eventually cause you to break down just like me. If you do come to a point like this (I assure you, christians will come to points like this in there life), remember your Savior. For He went through suffering that was unlike any other. He was betrayed, denied, abandoned, spited upon, crowned with thorns, beaten, lashed, nailed to a cross of wood, speared, and even more horrendous things. He did not deserve any of it. He could have ran away or given us all what we deserve, eternal death. Yet He endured all those things because He loved us. He took the punishment for us, so that we may be saved by His righteous wraith.

After I made that call, I prepared to go to prayer meeting. Our church has prayer meeting scheduled once a month. I brought my cousins and headed off to the church. We had a devotion with one of our leaders and He made me realize something, others are suffering as well. I had a broad understanding of this but to see that others are suffering for there sins is such a hard thing to view. For me, people who do evil things, I would conclude that they either 1.)Don't know of it. 2.) Accept it. Then I found out a third one, they struggle in it.

Its so ridiculous how I couldn't see that. For I'm in that third category, yet I never acknowledge that others are in this category as well. Usually I conclude that they are fighting the struggle so it is obvious they are not in a deep hole. Now thinking like that is just ignorance on my part, being very biased, prejudicial, stereo typing, etc. I pray that I may have eyes to read the people around me, instead of just looking at the cover. My King shows a perfect example in observing Peter. Peter rejected Jesus three time yet Jesus still held Him as one of His followers. I know their is a difference in the fact that Jesus is omniscience, as for us if they don't how a complete rejection of Christ, we should continue to see them as christians or people who don't know Christ.

Lead On, Oh King Eternal, pray for your children to follow you